52 Weeks....to the Real Me

Well. I ... today wasn't HORRIBLE. It wasn't terrific. But I can live with myself. I didn't get to exercise (still kinda sick) but here's the food list:

zone bar

diet coke

easy mac-n- cheese
yogurt w/meringue
applesauce

2 mini bags of pretzels (halloween size)

McDouble (just sandwich - no extras. I said NO to fries. NO to cookies.)

3 tablespoons of cake batter

carrots and low fat ranch dip (I said NO to reese's peanut butter cup enticing me)
and I'm going to have a zone bar before bed.

I KNOW I need more protein.


Tomorrow are conferences. YAY. Home late. Food on the run -- I'm going to pack lots of GOOD food to munch on! NO PIZZA!

Thanks for all the support and advice. To answer everyone at once:

• No, I didn't finish my 100 day burpee challenge, I made it to day 50 though!
• Mom does try to hide the food - but in order to find things I DO NEED, I hunt. -- I end up finding bad stuff. (or like the Oreos hidden in the closet now - I know they are there)
• Unfortunately getting her onboard in a productive way is harder, instead of not buy the stuff, she'd rather chastise at dad for eating it.
  

Again, thanks everyone. I'm going to be better about posting. See.. 2 days in a row! Now I'm going to finish Duplicity and head to bed. =)

40 days till Hawaii!!!
(Boss approved.. need to forward papers to the Superintendent... then I'm set!)

I did it. or was at least really close! I had a great 2 block "snack" before my crossfit workout. A great 3 block breakfast after it. A 3 block lunch between classes, a zone bar snack and a good dinner. Dinner is my "almost" I went to Red Lobster. I ate 1 chicken breast and 2 shrimp, my salad, some mashed potatoes, two rolls. It was a tad high on carb, but I also brought home 1 chicken breast, 4 shrimp, and half my potatoes!!

I was kinda tired earlier but as the day went on I felt better and better. I don't know if it's realizations about my life, a new calm in my math class, the food combination, or maybe a combination of all of the above. But tonight I can say without a doubt, for the first time in a LONG time. I'm content. Maybe even happy.

I've tried to explain why I like crossfit so much. Why I want to train like this, how I can put in terms people can understand. I've used examples like Survivor and that new movie coming out, but today I realized what it REALLY was. (not that I ACTUALLY want to do this... but ...) I want to BE ABLE to compete (competently) on American Gladiators. I loved that show back in the day and I used it as inspiration when I was "running" on the elliptical. I want to be able to do stuff like that!! That's why I like CrossFit. It's helping me be like that!


Todays' warm-up
750m row
agility practice

WOD
150 jumping pull-ups (for time)
After every 2 minutes, we owed 100m rowing.
I finished with a time of 9:42
therefore I also did an original 400m row.

Plus I did my 24 burpees.

Day 2 - Biggest Loser 30-Day Jump Start
Who am I doing this for? Of course the correct answer is ME. But there are others too. I am mostly doing it for me -- but the rest of the world deserves to see the TRUE me. The ME I was meant to be. One of my favorite quotes is "It's never too late to be who you might have been." by George Elliot. It's my time now. It's time for ME to make myself into who I want to be, who I was meant to be.
To remind me of why I want to do this, I have a photo marking my place in my Biggest Loser book.
The photo is of me and two of my nephews from a few years ago.

It reminds me of several of the reasons I need to make this transformation.

• It reminds me of the person I NEVER want to be again -- a number on the scale that I will never see again.
• It reminds me that I have let many important relationships slide away and that they need to be rekindled and nurtured.
• The boys are also a reminder of the children I hope to have someday, a reason to be as healthy as possible, so I can be the best parent possible.

Exercise Day 2-
Today was a great walk. I had tons of energy, my feet didn't bother me near as much and my legs only hurt a little. I chose a different song list. This one was much more upbeat than yesterday. The beat of the music kept me moving even faster. I went 2.94 km today. (I used my "new upbeat workout" playlist)